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Name: carly
Birthday: 11/29/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: i love to sleep ^_^, i like partying but in moderation, my favorite drink is a jack and coke, yum!!!, i love my guinea pigs cookie and ginger, they rule me so completely. i have 3 tattoos soon to be 4. i used to do band but since vet school is coming soon i had to quit =( animals are my life but sometimes i need a break. Dollar movies and Papa JOhns on Tuesdays ($4.99 for a lg pizza!) are a tradition between my boys and i. karma is a bitch just remember that everyone....and last but not least dancing in the rain and sliding down snow on lunch trays =)
Expertise: various vets
UGA Vet Teachign Hospital
Poultry Research
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  lareyna eldest
Yahoo:  tuttiflutie04@yahoo.com
Member Since:
6/29/2004
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| went to see fantastic four with collin, randy, shannon yu, and her
friend elizabeth. in the middle of the movie collin yells out that i
would fight on the side of dr. doom. not true. i'd steal his powers and
leave him for dead and maybe fight for good or maybe just not fight at
all. sheesh i wouldn't try to go on a killing rampage or something. i
also got called ugly, chaotic evil, and denied
muskateer-hood. life sucks. that really makes me mad. especially the
ugly thing. i'm not unattractive. they can't use me like that to flirt
with other girls. it really pisses me off,i mean do i use them like
that to flirt with other guys? no. i mean shit being around them seems
to scare off guys! gawd. as for being chaotic evil,
i'm not. i'm not the slightest bit evil. i just have a healthy amount
of darkness inside me to counterbalance the light. geez. i would never
intentionally harm someone or kill anyone! i donno... it kinda hurt my
feelings and makes me feel like shit. and they keep fucking bringing up
the whole "we're just friends" thing too. obviously dumbasses. what did
you think, that i'd get a crush on you? please. y'all are my best
friends. why the hell would i do something that stupid that could
jepordize our friendship? plus itd be like getting a crush on my
brother. *shudder* it does make me feel not valued tho or at all like a
girl. *sigh* sometimes i wish i could change our friendship so that
they'd haveta see i'm a girl and that i'm a sweetheart under it all.
like i wonder if i should start acting like shannon or like catie queen
or some other girl that they goof off with. >_< but i can't.
they're the most important friends to me and i'm not risking it just so
i can act more like a girl and relearn how to flirt.
other than that summers been great. randy turned 21, we got drunk. we
go downtown alot now. lots of fun facebook pics for that. i have 2
traditions with girlfriends. oh and i am learning trapeze. barnum and
baileys here i come. | | |
| my best friends think i'm a heartless bitch...this is not good.i'm ruthless and there's a difference. i have a heart...a very very nervous and scared heart. i know i'm sweet and vuneruable underneath it all but shit even after 3 years i'm afraid to let ppl get close to me. well screw it. it's our last year here at UGA, i'm going to be nicer even if it breaks me. i will be sweet and girly (occasionally) and i guess touchy-er? *shudders* i hate human contact except for my family and doug but i will get over it. fuck it. i can't go through life being a hardass. it will be a challenge but a good one. not that i'll stop being sarcastic but i will attempt to think before i speak and act. >_< i love my friends, i don't think they know how deep my loyalty and love for them runs. they are my world and i would fight like a cornered tiger if anyone tried to hurt them...unfortunately i haven't had the chance to actually demonstrate this. gawd i feel like shit *cries*. | | |
| i never realized what a complex and different person you are. you love to make ppl feel better than you or put themselves above you, even if it means lying. i wish you didn't do that with me, i always prefer honesty and i knew you were my equal all along. u are smart and ambitious just on a different time frame. we're more different than i realized and that's a good thing. but wow how the situation has changed, our faiths and beliefs and our views on the world. you never really open up but when you do it makes me love you even more. despite the horrible things you do sometimes out of ignorance or thoughtlessness it/s times like these that make me love you more and more. i feel so petty and jaded when i think of all the times i suspect you or get jealous of you but now i think you understand it's due to my lack of knowledge. i want you to be happy and i think living together will make a difference. who knew you were so sad or so influenced by people. i just want you happy. i know i'm happy whenever i'm with you, whenever i hold you or kiss you or talk to you. my happiness is grounded in the loves of the world. i wish we could be together everyday and we could make each other laugh the way we do. ur so sweet and wonderful underneath that sarcastic hermit you project. i'm jealous of your work b/c they get to see you and i do not, not because i think you are cheatin on me. this time i'll make a vow to try to see you more rather than being so selfish and trying to get up up in athens. b/c you made me realize how much i love you and how much i'm willing to try to make this work. ur the best thing that's happened to me and i never want to lose that. what's even better is i know you love me and you will see a difference on my end of things. this i promise. i can't wait to get to know more about you and your past. 3 1/2 years later and still learning about each other, how amazing is that. i wish that i had kept some secrets but u know me in and out. u know my friends, you know what we do and how we roll =P all i can do now is see the person below who you present to the public. i can be the person who is there for you when ur sad or angry. thanks to you my patience has learned to over extend itself and i've learned to be more understanding than ghandi. now it's time to use those things for you rather than for dealing with shit. thanks for talking last night. it made more of a difference than u know. | | |
| so much drama in athens. aw well. i'm a waitress bartender. dammit. i've sunk so low. still need a place to live that isn't crazy. baby pigs are leaving soon. i'm tired and ill. but i'm happy with doug. i need to study for GRE BIO. *sigh* now it's cold again. i had a weird dream about randy and collin last night. it was very awkward. i cna't wait for this vampire party tho. just you fuckers wait. i'm gonna be so damn sexy. =P dissatisfied right now. i don't know with what. | | |
| just so ppl know i write more in my myspace journal thingy then here...i donno why i just do. today felt like summer, i got to sit outside and feel the warm sun crawl into my veins again. i've woken up from a long winters sleep. like a reptile i bask in the sun. awkward and interesting times lay ahead. away from georgia i felt it's siren call, one i thought i'd never feel. love and friends call me back. weirdly enough i've reevalutaed friendships up here, the ones i miss the most are the oldest ones. randy collin peter bettina jenny keegan and doug are the few i truly and honestly miss and want to see again so badly that it hurts. athens calls and summer beckons. i can't wait for long hot days at the pool, wasting away in margartiaville. =P for once i know what lies ahead and what i want to lie ahead. yes it will be stressful again but be confiedent in being alone will bring me through it. memories are nothing to shy away from, that's why they were ;made. tonight i will sit by my window and watch the moon rise and the stars emerge. it will be glorious | | |
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